Sunday, May 27, 2012

Practicing the Feast

We didn't blog the last feast meal.  I don't know that I can even remember it.  Bah.

Here we go again.  Sometimes, there's nothing worse than wanting to connect and finding that you've gotten so far from that place of slowing down and really having a conversation that it takes practice.  It does take practice.  It's a lot like running, I think.  Each fall, I scheme up new ways to stay in shape over the winter.  Each winter, I give up and decide that heavy whipping cream is more important than pants that fit.  Each spring, I get all excited about running again.  I start off running way too quickly, get about 2 blocks into a 3-mile run, and walk.  I tell myself that I'll start running at the next landmark, go a couple more blocks, and walk.  It goes this way until, finally, I run the whole 3-mile route.

We start with small conversations... and they get longer and longer, and the candles shorter and shorter, and eventually, instead of gulping down the last few sips of wine, I let it sit in the glass until I'm good and ready for dinner to be done.  It is the hunger for those nights that keeps me going through all the others.  It is the nights that are full of dreaming together, of coming up with our schemes of how we're going to conquer the world, the nights of knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that - though our team is small - "Team B-R" is pretty kickass.

I haven't eaten pork chops and enjoyed it since I was a kid.  A little bit of brine, a few grilled veggies, and a balsamic cream sauce makes pork chops magical.

Oh, and I decided to make homemade butterscotch pudding.  I am not at all humble about dessert.  I love making it, I love eating it, and I'm good at it.  See: previous conversation about running.

Pork Chops
4 pork chops
water to cover
2 small handfuls of salt
3 small handfuls of sugar
1 bay leaf
5-10 peppercorns

Put the pork chops in brine about 2 hours before eating.  An hour before eating, pull from the fridge so they come up to room temp (I encourage purchasing meat from a source you trust; meat can be in the "danger zone" (between 40-140 degrees) for 4 hours, and that's the standard for food service for pork from factory farms.  30 minutes before eating, heat up the grill.  If you're using charcoal, most of the coals should be white when you put the pork on.  Right before you put the meat on the grill, dry it off with a paper towel.  This way, the grill won't work to dry off your meat before it starts to cook it.  Cook the pork for several minutes (4-7) on each side.  When you touch it, it should have very little give to it.  You'll want the meat to be medium-well, if not well-done, but not cooked to oblivion.

Sauce
1 clove garlic
3T balsamic vinegar
1/4c. heavy whipping cream
Rosemary
Salt
Pepper

Sautee the garlic in some olive oil.  When you start to smell it, pour over the balsamic vinegar.  When that is bubbling, add the cream.  Add the rosemary, salt, and pepper.  Cook, stirring constantly, until the sauce becomes dark dark brown (almost black).  If it's the color of chocolate milk, you're not done stirring yet.  It will be rich and delicious.  Put some on your finger and try it.  Just swipe your finger over the surface of the sauce; it won't burn you (and if it does, it won't burn you badly), and it will make you look hardcore.  Check the seasonings.

Grilled Vegetables
Use whatever veggies are in season.
Asparagus
Green Garlic
Green Onions

Drizzle a bit of olive oil over the vegetables, followed by salt and pepper.  Grill for 5-10 minutes or until done.

Mashed Potatoes
4 potatoes, chopped
As much butter as you dare

Boil the potatoes until they fall apart when you stick a fork in them.  Drain them and toss the drained potatoes into a mixing bowl.  Mix with as much butter as you can stand (I admire people who use almost equal parts butter and potatoes - no kidding - but I am not yet brave enough to do it), adding salt and pepper (white pepper, if you're feeling fancy) to taste.


Butterscotch Pudding (from With a Measure of Grace)
1/4c butter
3/4c packed brown sugar
1/4t salt
1/2c heavy whipping cream
1 1/2c milk
1 capful vanilla extract (NOT IMITATION - NEVER IMITATION.  I feel strongly about this.) You can also use booze... orange liqeur is interesting, as is coffee, etc.
3T cornstarch, dissolved in 3T water

Melt the butter;  add brown sugar and salt.  Cook until it starts to smell a little burnt, but not a lot burnt.  Add the heavy whipping cream.  It will spit and yell at you because the cold cream will shock the hot caramel.  Stir the caramel until there are no more sugar chunks.  Add the milk and vanilla extract.  Stir until well mixed.  Add the cornstarch and water mixture (stir it to make sure there are no chunks first), and stir until the mixture becomes thick.  Transfer into individual bowls and place plastic wrap over the surface.  Refridgerate.  Serve with whipped cream.




Saturday, May 5, 2012

Relationship Insurance


This is seriously my favorite wedding picture.
It betrays our personalities so well,
awkwardness and all.  Seriously,
Any ideas on what the
caption should be?
Tomorrow, we're going all-out for feast meal in a way that we haven't in a long time.  For us this is code for: "Life has been rough lately and we need to slow down and connect over dinner and take conscious time."  This is code for: "We haven't talked about our hopes, dreams, or big ideas in a long time."  This is code for: "What has been occupying your head since the last time I listened to you?"  This is code for: "I'm sorry I haven't been listening.  I've been too wrapped up in my own stuff."  This is code for: "I love you."

These dinners are our relationship insurance.  Since we don't go for things like prenuptual agreements (seriously... ), we've decided to make this relationship the best one we can.  It's a good reminder.  Sometimes, a healthy relationship doesn't feel like enough.  The truth is, though, like I said to my Dad when we were talking about some of my hopes for vocation/work and my fears they won't come through, "Dad, if all I get out of this life is Ben, I've got more than most people could ever dream of."  Sometimes, I forget that this is true.  Sometimes, I forget that loving and being loved is one of the sincerest forms of grace I have encountered.  Here's to it!

(This picture was 8 years ago.  Not much has changed.)


Stinky Pre-Race Runner Salad (if you don't say it in order, it's awkward)

I just made a pasta/bean dish that might be changing my world.  Maybe it will change yours too.  Sometimes the best kitchen things happen on accident (see: chocolate chip cookies).  Anyway, it makes up for the abject failure of a chocolate buttercream pie (dessert for tomorrow) that has now been laid to rest in our compost bin (we'll be buying extra butter and eggs this week, courtesy of yours truly).

Don't worry... someday Ben will contribute to the blog as well.  His posts will likely be far more succinct and with far fewer rabbitholes, distractions...

1c. garbanzo beans, soaked overnight and drained (or, if you're like me, you make things like this at the last minute.  In that case, pour boiling water over them, cover and let sit for 1 hour).  You could also use one 8oz can.
6 olives, preferrably a combination of black and green, the highest quality you can find, pitted and chopped roughly.
1/4 red onion, on the edge between diced and minced*
1 clove garlic, minced
2T apple cider vinegar
2T olive oil
Salt, to taste

Boil the garbanzos until tender.  I don't have a trick for knowing when this is - I usually end up eating a few that are pretty undercooked before they are done.  Allow to cool briefly.  Add the other ingredients and stir.

You could eat it plain or with crusty bread, but we're going to have it with pasta since we are running a 12k tomorrow morning.  You can use any kind of small pasta you like.  Orichette is nice with garbanzos, if you're looking for a recommendation.

Add pasta to garbanzos and toss.  Stir in some arugula if you like (we will!).




Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Slowing Down to Sleep

Today Ben biked into the wind for 9 miles to get to work (yes, he still had to work on his feet in the kitchen!).  I went to camp with a bunch of senior citizens from church and came home to meetings, tensions in the church that live only barely beneath the surface, and an academic paper that is screaming to be finished.  Some comfort food is in order.  That's why I'm making pesto grilled cheese for dinner tonight.  Some nights, slowing down so the voices in your head get bored and leave is worth a smaller amount of sleep.

4 slices of bread (make your own!  This recipe is easy and awesome: http://www.nytimes.com/2006/11/08/dining/081mrex.html)
4 slices provolone cheese
Argula pesto (mostly made of what we happened to have in the fridge; not really from a recipe)

The only recipe you'll really need is for the pesto:
1 clove garlic
2 big fistfuls of arugula (probably around 2 cups)
1 fistful of parsley (we use flat-leaf, probably around 1/2 cup if you're of the obsessive measuring persuasion)
Olive oil (probably around 1/4c.)
Salt to taste
Nuts if you have them (pine nuts or almonds work best; you can use stronger flavored nuts, but they can compete with the pepperiness of the arugula)
Parmesan if you want it (use if you are putting this on pasta instead of in grilled cheese!)

Preheat oven to 250.

Put garlic, arugula, and parsley in a food processer (a cuisinart is around $100; it's expensive, but we've had ours 5 years and it has paid for itself a bajillion times over).  After 20 seconds, drizzle olive oil into processor.  Add salt.  Taste it to see if you like it.  Add a little more salt if you don't.  Add nuts if you're rich or if you have them on hand (probably around 1/8c chopped).  I didn't have any and they're not in the grocery budget, so we left them out.  Add parmesan if you want it (probably around 1/4c.)  Process until uniformly mixed.

Melt butter (not margarine, not I can't believe it's not (you can tell the difference), and use more than you think you need - at least 1 tablespoon) in an oven-safe pan that can fit the grilled cheese.  Smear a generous amount of pesto on each slice of bread.  Put two pieces of cheese on each.  Cook grilled cheese on one side.  Flip when it is browned.  After you flip it, put it in the oven until the other side is browned (around 15 minutes).  This way, the cheese all gets melted and you don't have browned bread and non-melted cheese.



A few notes:
- When basil is in season, substitute it for arugula (arugula and basil are not in season at the same time unless you live in Berkeley; if you live in Berkeley, you probably already know what's in season).
- If you want to freeze the pesto, skip the nuts and the cheese.  Put the pesto in silicon ice cube trays.  When it is solid, turn it out into a freezer bag.
- This pesto is good on: grilled cheese, pasta, pizza, mixed with cream cheese and put on crackers, and is probably also good on chicken.  If you want to put it on beef or lamb, put 1/4c. back in the food processor with 1/4c. butter and make a compound butter.  Put the butter in plastic wrap in a cylinder shape and put in the freezer.  Grill your meat.  Slice the butter right out of the freezer and put it on top of your meat.  It will melt with the temperature of the meat and make it delicious.